Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Deja vu

I'm leaving tomorrow and thankful I was already planning on going. We got a phone call today, well while I was working, and all of our criminal history has been shredded by the FBI. Supposedly we filled everything out last February on an old form, which can't be transferred and is now longer accepted. Therefore all old forms had to be destroyed and families have to re-file. We were told by one worker if it wasn't on her desk in Portland tomorrow we wouldn't be able to go to committee on the 10th because we no longer have a valid background check! We were scrambling to figure out what we were going to do. We also needed to be finger printed and the sheriffs' office only finger prints on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I pleaded with the officer to fill out our forms and he said if I could be there in 5 or 10 minutes he would do it. I had to find a finger print card !!! I picked up David and flew to the DHS building to get cards and then flew to the sheriff's station. So now on my way to my grandmas I can have our second background check on their desk in Portland right on time!

Crazy Crazy! I'm sure most adoptions have their crazy moments but my mind is just catching up with my body for the day. Hopefully a nice sleep with help before the long drive tomorrow.

And yes, we are going to committee for Zachary on March 10th! Very excited!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Long time no post

I promise I will write soon. Maybe even later today! Lots to say and so little time :)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010


What to write? I'm not really sure.

To keep it simple, David and I had an opportunity last week to purchase tickets to Hawaii. We bought the tickets and left 4 days later. Nothing like spur of the moment. We are enjoying a nice break from the snow and cold in Baker as well as the company of David's brother and sister-in-law who live here.

Today we spent the entire day on the beach. As the evening came I was taking pictures and digging my feet in the sand. I always think of the boys, but tonight I was touched deeply by their absence. Why does it hit out of the middle of no where at times? I don't always know what to do with some of my thoughts, but tonight I just let them come. I thought about things had it gone differently, and reflected on how things are currently happening. Then as the sun was setting, I wrote their names in the sand and watched the water take them to sea. A lady walked by and read their names before the water touched them. She had no idea what she walked upon, and I'm not sure why, but I thought I would be embarrassed if someone saw what I was doing. Before I became distracted by the stranger I watched the water wash over the sand and then it was over. She continued walking. My heart was beating a little faster as I let two warm tears make their way down my face before I made my way back to our spot where we had been sitting. On my mind and always deep in my soul, the two little boys that changed us softly.